A(nother) Fresh Start

New Year 2018 Balloons GlitterI’ve been blogging for a long time, so when I use generic titles like the above I assume there will already be another post by a similar name. If one pops up as a suggested second read, go take a look. If nothing else it should be amusing to see my lack of progress from then to now.

FAMILY

This year I’m not making resolutions as such, but I have had a pretty tough year in a lot of aspects of my life and there are things I want to change. We moved in to our multi-generational home last Christmas and it was not easy. It’s been a very steep learning curve and at times it’s felt as though nobody is happy but toward the end of the year things really seemed to mellow. I haven’t shared much about the trials of the new living situation because they aren’t just my stories to tell but I will at some point give an update on what life is like living with my parents (and my own family) in my 30s.

MARRIAGE

The issues with the move also had a knock on effect for me and Lee and if I’m entirely candid (which would always be my choice but again, not just my life) our marriage has been seriously tested. It’s not been fun but we’ve learned a lot about each other (and ourselves) in the process. It’s forced us to communicate more effectively and whereas this time last year I was really pretty down, I’m actually feeling really positive about the year ahead.

KIDS

The kids have worked through their frustrating Summer phase (see ALL references to our family holiday) and have been lovely over Christmas. We’re already planning our next big trip and are trying to forget how tired and grouchy we all were on the last one. Ella is 12 now (though I keep thinking she’s 13) and is giving me all the sarcasm, which only makes us love her more. Milo is 6 and a ball of opinions, also hilarious and a born showman. Rather horrifyingly, he’s already a tech addict, my favourite recent quote was ‘the internet’s not working, so we can talk’.

WORK

My regular job was on the line until around Spring time, I ended up moving to a different role, learning something new and changing my working days. It’s been different but I’m still only part time, I still enjoy the company of my colleagues and I haven’t set anything on fire so I think it’s going ok.

ME

Talking of setting things on fire, I actually changed my own car battery for the first time last month! I was so impressed with myself, just set the one small fire in my engine when momentarily touching both the positive and negative elements with my spanner but worse things have happened at sea. I’ve been trying to rely less on other people to help me with jobs I previously wouldn’t have attempted so I suppose if I were to resolve one thing, it might be that.

BLOG

Blog/YouTube wise, I have to work harder. I had a crisis of confidence this year. They say that comparison is the thief of joy and they’re absolutely right. I was already in a not so great place and I just started to feel like YouTube had outgrown me. A couple of years ago a couple people told me I worked too hard and wasn’t making time for an actual life, I took it to heart and really scaled back but I now realise that wasn’t the right thing for me. The people who made those comments didn’t want YouTube to be their job, this is my job and I’ve been phoning it in.

MOTIVATION

2017 seems to have been the year of ‘self care’ and ‘unplugging’ but you can’t just stop working for a month in the real world. In the past I would work myself too hard, I know that but I had a schedule and I kept it. This year I’m focusing on quality and consistency so there may be fewer videos and fewer posts but I want them to be posts that are worth spending your time on. There are more bloggers and vloggers than ever and it feels like we all have less time (doesn’t it?) so I feel like that’s the right move.

And that’s me. I’d like to talk a little more openly about life and relationships (because that’s been hugely helpful for me from others) so you may see some self-indulgent-soul-searchy rubbish from me in the coming months but I’ll also hopefully share some fun stuff too. You know, lipsticks and the like 😉

Happy New Year

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11 Comments

  1. Jane
    1 January, 2018 / 10:48 am

    Glad you feel you can be honest about life’s ups and downs, and also glad you are working out what what works best for you. Looking forward to following you in 2018, there might be lots of new blogs / YouTube channels, but I don’t want to watch 15 yr olds, or people hilariously stuffing marshmallows in their faces, if I needed to see that I’d ask my kids to do it! You still have an audience, and everything you do, you do really well, and most importantly authentically. Happy New Year xx

  2. 1 January, 2018 / 11:57 am

    I just love the way you write and love reading your posts! I can’t wait for more content this year. Happy New Year! Xxx

    sophieinwonderlandxo.com

  3. Suze
    1 January, 2018 / 6:27 pm

    I couldn’t agree more with what Jane said about your audience….you definitely have one and we’re avidly awaiting what’s to come. I want to hear from someone who is living their own life, not just imitating others or portraying what they think they should. I want to hear from someone genuine, someone credible with a unique ‘voice’ that I enjoy listening to – someone who has been around a block or two and can tell the tales (teeny tiny blocks, of course, I know you’re not ancient!).

    I really struggle to find interesting and relatable bloggers/vloggers amongst all the teeny-bop stuff and marshmallow-stuffing antics (Amen, Jane!) so I sincerely hope you and your mojo will stick around for 2018. Bring it, girl! (Seriously though, no pressure!…Just know that there are people out here who like what you do and how you do it, whether you keep it the same or mix it up, whatever makes you happy!)

  4. Chase Amie
    1 January, 2018 / 7:59 pm

    What Jane and Suze said… love how real you are with everything you do! So excited for what 2018 will bring! 😀

  5. Laura
    1 January, 2018 / 8:43 pm

    Happy New Year Mikhila. Never think you don’t have an audience. The reason I watch you and Emma is because you are much more relatable because you are similar ages to me, I don’t want to be watching a 17 year old etc. That’s not to say I don’t love seeing Milo in your blogs, he is such a showman. I can relate to living with your parents as I am still in that position and it is tough but then there are times that I am glad. 2017 ended really rubbish for me and my family, we lost a very close family member to cancer on Christmas Eve so was very glad we were all close by. I hope 2018 is everything you and your family want it to be. Lx

  6. Melissa
    2 January, 2018 / 1:06 am

    I can appreciate how honest you are ! Life has a way of making us stop think and make changes that are for us personally more as we get older! When I was younger it was all about my kids and husband now that I’m 42 trust me I’m 100% for my kids (who are grown) and husband of 20 years as well as my grandsons but this life is for me too and I want to make changes within myself for myself ! 2018 is the year for that!!!!

  7. 2 January, 2018 / 7:55 pm

    I feeeeel you (in the least creepy way possible) when you’re speaking about people saying you work too much on blog/YouTube. It’s the same as what everyone says to me! But I want this to be my job and you can’t expect it to just land on a plate with no hard work beforehand.

    Awesome post as always.

    Hollife xo

  8. 2 January, 2018 / 8:25 pm

    Really honest post, I love the pic :))

  9. 2 January, 2018 / 8:52 pm

    Firstly, loving the fresh new look on the blog – it looks the perfect way to kickstart the year.
    I’ve done the multigenerational living in the past and it was hard, we only managed to hack it for less than 18 months – at no point did it get better for us, it only got worse so I’m glad that you’re out the other side of the settling pains and you’re all feeling happier.
    I can’t wait to see what 2018 brings for you content wise, I’ve been a subscriber since I was at uni (ugh, it’s 6 years since I left!) and with every evolution I’ve loved to see what’s round the corner for you.

  10. Sharon
    3 January, 2018 / 1:00 am

    Despite subscribing to a bunch of YouTube channels, yours is really the only one I open up YouTube looking for. It’s a little baffling even to me, but I just love watching you vlog your ordinary life and ramble on about whatever is on your mind while you do beauty content or whatever. It’s comforting somehow, and without getting weird – it’s like that need for connection we can all have sometimes, even when we don’t actually know the person. I would support you no matter what you did – just don’t stop!!! LOL Happy New Year!!

  11. Ingrid
    3 January, 2018 / 8:45 am

    thank you for being real and honest. I can only agree with the previous comments – you do have a loyal audience that loves you for your realness and authenticity. Happy 2018, may it bring all the best to you, both online and off!

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