Fresh Start & Full Time Blogging

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I wrote a post over on my life blog (which has been neglected recently but I’ll catch it up soon) and have spoken at length on my daily vlogs about my work situation and the potential that I would become a full time blogger.. well that day is fast approaching and I thought I’d update those of you who follow only my beauty related channels with that’s going on.

In a nutshell I’ve been a temp for the last 2+ years, it was a fairly secure job, they even had me back after I took time off to have Milo but as with most temporary positions it has now come to an end. It’s sad because though I didn’t love the job itself I will miss the people I work with and the daily routine. When I went back after having Milo I kept Monday off to maintain my blog and YouTube channels, I didn’t want to be always working so I thought that extra day would allow me to still have a weekend.. that didn’t really work out. I did what I could but I always ended up filming or blogging while Lee was around as a guaranteed babysitter as I didn’t want to risk Milo refusing his afternoon nap and me losing my time to work. I initially had hoped that my blog would allow me not to go back to work at all after my maternity allowance ended but unfortunately I wasn’t in that position and actually when I did go back I really enjoyed it. It’s hard to be at home with a baby all day, you lose motivation to get dressed and you lack a big chunk of social interaction. I’m sure it’s the same for those who work from home without kids around but when you have a baby who’s got up on the wrong side of bed that day you would give just about anything to sit in an office for a few hours. Much as I didn’t want to go back I’m not nervous to stay home.

I am luckily now in a position where my blog does pay my bills and so when my work comes to an end on the 23rd of this month I don’t have to rush out with a pile of CV’s under my arm.. I can look for something else.. or not, after all  this is still work. There are two of us left in the office and we’re both part time so we’ve applied for a job share at the company we’re with and if that comes to pass I will be down to 2 days per week on a permanent employment contract which will suit me down to the ground. Enough time to get everything done at home and (hopefully) keep my evenings and weekends free as well as some structure to my week, a little extra money and Milo will be back with his childminder a couple of days which is good for him on a social level too. Unfortunately I can’t count on that so for now I have on my full time blogger hat and scared as I am to go it alone and rely on that income to fund me I’m excited to see what I can make of it given more time.

One thing I was really nervous about when this first became a serious possibility was perception – A rather well known blogger recently revealed that she had packed in her job to concentrate on her internet empire and she got a heck of a lot of stick for it. One reader dubbed her lazy and stupid which got me really riled up, it’s certainly not a lazy career path, it’s all on you whether you get paid at the end of the month.. you can’t just sit around doing nothing and miraculously still make money!! If you’ve got to the level that you can live off something you’ve created (whatever it may be) the last think you can be accused of it laziness, you have to work hard and be completely dedicated, you probably wouldn’t be reading this now if in the first few months I was on YouTube I hadn’t made 100 videos. There’s a common misconception that you can put out a few posts and make a bundle online but those who are doing that can do so because they put in the time before.. I’m certainly not there yet, I’m still building my audience and if I didn’t post for a day .. what am I saying? That will NEVER happen.. because I AM dedicated, I DO work hard and anyone who thinks it’s stupid to work for yourself is very short sighted.

I didn’t intend for that to get all defensive and ranty but once I had that comment in my mind I was on one – and it wasn’t even about me! Outside of those aware of the blogging community I worry about how people will see me in the ‘real world’ when I tell them what I do for a living. Will friends and family now consider me unemployed? Perhaps they wont understand that I’ve effectively worked 2 jobs for 3 years.. I guess they can make their peace with me being a ‘Stay At Home Mum’ but much as it pains me it does matter to me how I’m perceived by others – will suddenly the working girls (no hooker pun intended) find me hard to relate to because I don’t go out to work? These are the things that go through my mind when these major life decisions are to be made.. what will my readers think? After all I wouldn’t have the option to work from home if you guys weren’t reading this right now so although it seems crazy to take in to consideration the opinions of strangers it is those strangers that have given me this opportunity and what you think really does matter.

My plan is to try it out for a few months and see how I go, if I get this other job then great but if not and I don’t feel like the full time blogging is for me there are always jobs to be done.. I’m not above working in a bar or waitressing – some of the best jobs I’ve ever had! For now I thought I’d let you know the situation and give you this little insight in to my mind – scary I know.

Miss BB

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  1. kay dutton
    5 August, 2013 / 5:48 pm

    What ever comes round for you I wish you luck. Things happen for a reason and if you don’t get the two days a week work then that is meant to be. You are the first blogger I started watching about three months ago, and i love you. I do feel a bit old at 47 to be reading blogs about make up and hauls, but i live vicariously (think thats the word) through you all. I have been known to go shopping with a couple of your recommended items on a list. Best wishes with whatever happens. Kay. x

  2. sarah
    5 August, 2013 / 5:58 pm

    Hey,
    I think you should go for it! I started working for myself after being a temp for two years in January this year. That persons comment has really annoyed me too. They obviously don’t realise that ALL of your motivation has to come from yourself. It can be hard sometimes, and you have to be very strict with yourself. How dare they call her lazy!
    Why shouldn’t you do something you enjoy for a living? After all, you’re the one who’s put all the work in and been brilliant to make it a possibility in the first place. They’re probably just hating on her out of jealousy!

    Sarah x

  3. 5 August, 2013 / 6:00 pm

    When a door closes a window opens, and it sounds to me as if you have an amazing opportunity to focus on what you enjoy doing and that you’re great at. What an exciting time and how fantastic to spend your days doing something creative! All the best, I know you’ll have a lot of success!

  4. 5 August, 2013 / 6:11 pm

    I’ve been a follower of your blog for ages and think its amazing. Go for it and see where it takes you, don’t let anybody stand in your way if you’re able to do something you enjoy for a living x

  5. 5 August, 2013 / 6:11 pm

    Congrats on doing what you want to do! There’s going to be someone out there who disagrees with every decision you make! Don’t let anyone else stop you from being you.

    Nicky
    zeeblikesit.blogspot.com
    xx

  6. JN
    5 August, 2013 / 6:42 pm

    Don’t listen to the negative comments. If you can make a living doing something you enjoy doing then that’s great!

  7. 5 August, 2013 / 6:45 pm

    Congrats on your decision. as long as you are happy who cares what some ppl think?
    but do take good rest 🙂 After the baby and this hassle., you do deserve it!

  8. Elaine
    5 August, 2013 / 6:46 pm

    Khila, I loved this post. I think regardless of what you decide to do you are VERY relatable.. it’s not like you decided not to work after having Milo, this decision was out of your hands and good for you doing something you enjoy 🙂
    I think people will be inspired by you if anything 🙂

    Good luck with everything, I for one am really enjoying the daily vlogs and instagram updates 🙂 xx

  9. 5 August, 2013 / 6:58 pm

    Congratulations! I think as long as you earn from it is a job, end of. I hope this goes well for you and can’t wait to see future posts!

    Charlotte
    x

  10. 5 August, 2013 / 7:06 pm

    I can’t see how anyone thinks that the bloggers are lazy, other full time writers aren’t labelled in such a way. I love your blog and YouTube because you aren’t a teenager recommending products that I could never afford, you are honest and always look for budget alternatives.

    I hope that everything works out, and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for your blog and YouTube

  11. 5 August, 2013 / 7:21 pm

    Wow this sounds like a really exciting step for you, don’t worry about people’s opinion just go for it!!
    Xx

  12. 5 August, 2013 / 7:36 pm

    I think you being a blogger as a full time job will be amazing! I already love your blog as it is, and with more input it will be even more amazing as you don’t have to worry about work anymore and I certaintly wouldn’t say this is being lazy. It would be a dream for my blog to pay the bills, I’d love to be like you when I am your age. I hope it all goes well for you Xx

  13. 5 August, 2013 / 7:40 pm

    I wish you luck in your new venture – I hope you’re very happy in it! Blogging is hard – its like a job that never ends as it includes social networking as well as many other things. I’ve loved your blog for ages and you work so hard – you deserve more ‘time off’!

  14. Ccc1983
    5 August, 2013 / 7:59 pm

    I have been reading and observing your blog for the past couple of months now – and I have to say I genuinely think you are a lovely hard working committed and determined – oh and honest lady – and I love your blog, and will happily keep reading as I bet all and more of your followers will do.

    As all in life – we can never please all the people, god no! But please please do carry on – look at all,your followers who love you and your postings, humour, recommendations, style And life stories. And do it for yourself and your passion first, then for those fans and all the new ones who will jump on board the moment you are recomended or referred to, and with the surely increasing numbers – how could you not succeed. Like it seems, life has taught you motivation and you are ambitious to want and aim for this new step – and having a family helps too, as you work for your family, and your passion is infectious and your humility is endearing.

    Yep I am a fan! In fact would love to be a bit kore like you and have your attitude and outlook!

    I genuinely love your style and find you hilarious! I’m a boring temp worker too who is ambitious but resigned to not getting any where quick, and really keen to actually just start a family first and see how that suits me. This is why improve your postings.. You’re a bit of every woman out there, and so easy to relate to – to I bet all your followers.

    So, best luck and whatever happens you haven’t your best – what more can you ask for of yourself? It’s the old cliche but if you don’t try you’ll never know.. I’m a boring office going worker who wishes for your spirit, and would never ever lose faith in you or consider you somehow not like me, or lose my interest in your pages… Your passion leads you, and that is inspirational and keeps your posts and pages fun real and spontaneous.

    Good luck and I’m not going anywhere as a a follower.

    Charlotte

    • Ccc1983
      5 August, 2013 / 8:03 pm

      And one other thing, good on you for repping the lesser spenders who still love to splurge on beauty products! Unlike some other bloggers, love em still, your recommendations have actually led me to purchases as I can actually afford them! And the truth is a rare commodity nowadays on the web so.. Thank you again!

  15. 5 August, 2013 / 8:42 pm

    Well done! It would be my dream to be a full time blogger, I understand the hard work that goes into running a one man show, but it is so satisfying. It really is something to be proud of doing everything from the blog photography to the social promotion side. It would be lovely to read a post on how you’ve gotten to this point if that’s something you’re interested in sharing 🙂 xx

    Saffron Tinted Glasses

  16. 5 August, 2013 / 8:56 pm

    Good luck with whatever you decide to do – it must be great to at least have this opportunity 🙂 I hope everything goes well either way x

  17. 5 August, 2013 / 8:57 pm

    Exciting times ahead! Good luck being a full time blogger – good on you for taking the plunge.

  18. 5 August, 2013 / 9:07 pm

    Don’t listen to any negative feed back, if u get any. They are probably just jealous. Congratulations on doing so well. I enjoy reading your blogs you have clearly worked so hard on them. I wish u all the best.

    Jo

  19. 5 August, 2013 / 9:16 pm

    Congratulations, that is so exciting!

  20. 5 August, 2013 / 9:43 pm

    Congratulations and good luck! I think it’s good that you’re doing what you want to be doing, and although it’s difficult to do, ignore if anyone tries to criticise you! It’s your life, your choice and it (most likely) doesn’t have an impact on their lives! xx

  21. 5 August, 2013 / 10:00 pm

    I think it’s great what you’re doing, it’s every girls dream really – doing what you love and being in a stable position!

    Congrats girl!!

    Emgeorgias.blogspot.com

  22. Charlotte
    5 August, 2013 / 11:23 pm

    Yaaaay and well done and good luck! I started reading your blog a couple of months ago when I started full time work after being a student and working part time. You’ve inspired me to get up in the morning, I watch your videos when I’m doing my make up and it gets me in the mood for the day ahead. Thank you for making such a wonderful blog and channel, your daily vlogs are brilliant.
    Good luck for everything to come, it’ll be amazing whatever you do.

  23. Jodie
    5 August, 2013 / 11:25 pm

    Its a toughie. But in the end you can’t please everyone so you might as well please yourself. You put more work into blogging and making videos than most so whatever you decide no one who actually follows you will think you’re being lazy. Good luck!

  24. 5 August, 2013 / 11:43 pm

    Awww, you know what, you work bloody hard and it’s evident in both the quality and quantity of posts you do – it’s unfair of someone else to judge anyone on this if they haven’t tried working, having a baby, and updating these things every day – I know for a fact that I couldn’t do it, given that I manage one/two posts a week at best while working and I don’t have a child. I admire you and if there’s someone who needn’t stress about looking for a new job it’s you, you work hard at this and it’s paying off – good for you I say, and congratulations 😀
    xx

  25. 5 August, 2013 / 11:44 pm

    I’ve discussed becoming a part-time blogger and stay at home mummy with my other half but he doesn’t like the idea. Apparently it’s ok for ‘pocket money’ but not to live off as an income. I really don’t want to go back to my job though. The thought of being out of the house for 5 hours a day, 6 days a week for a 3 hour shift every day despresses me. I would rather be at home with my beautiful children, doing something I love. This past few months has brought me so many fabulous opportunities (some I had to pass up but hey, at least they were within reach), I think what you’re doing is amazing and I wish you the VERY best of luck.

    Louise x

    Confessions of a Secret Shopper

  26. Edel O'Sullivan
    5 August, 2013 / 11:45 pm

    Hi 🙂 I think you should go for it and if some of your readers judge deferently because of it then there’s nothing forcing them to read your blog I’m sure you will act like a role model to others and inspire others to take up blogging full time because it takes a lot of courage and I wish you the very best an no matter whether your a full time blogger or not I will still read your blogs as I’m sure most of your followers will 🙂 I hope this means even more blogs as I’m very greedy and would love lots of blogs everyday there that good 😀 <3

  27. Kimberly
    6 August, 2013 / 1:07 am

    Do what makes you happy. Screw everyone else. I wish you much success on your blogging. 🙂

  28. 6 August, 2013 / 8:40 am

    Good for you, it’s a brave move but very rewarding! I’m a stay at home mum and have had a few businesses from home, one of them a very successful online business, but in the eyes of my friends and family and even husband I was just a SAHM with ‘hobbies’. It’s so patronising but I guess it’s hard for people to get their heads round. I could be run off my feet on the website and really frantically working, but all anyone would see was me sat on the sofa with my feet up and a laptop, I didn’t look busy at all. But you have to go your own way and I wish you all the best. I love your blog and look forward to your changes! Claire (ps my little boy is called Milo too, great minds!)

    AgentSmyth

  29. Victoria
    6 August, 2013 / 10:39 am

    Good luck with it all. If you are in a position to make a go of it, do it, no matter what strangers say 🙂

  30. Emma
    6 August, 2013 / 12:29 pm

    Most people are just jealous because you get to do something full time that you love! I would love to be a full time blogger and I wish you all the luck. xo

    Also, being a mum is a full time job, so blogging is deffo overtime!! 😀

  31. 6 August, 2013 / 1:39 pm

    I personally feel a lot of the hate towards people that make a living from their blog/YT is from jealousy. Why else would they be so funny about someone making a living from something they love doing and have worked their backsides off for?! Another reason thought is sometimes once the money starts coming in, they change.. Their posts/videos aren’t the same anymore and they seem to have a bit of snobbery about them. So all the people that got them to where they are are like.. Hmmmm?! I hope you know what I’m trying to say – I’m terrible at explaining things!!

    Anyway, you completely deserve it so congratulations to you. You work hard.. you post often and your posts are always great. You’ve been one of my favourite bloggers/YTers since before I started my own blog, a year and a half ago. I love how down to earth and honest you are and how you make an effort in replying to people – so many others don’t once they’ve become more popular or started making money. Please never change! 🙂 x

  32. 6 August, 2013 / 3:26 pm

    Congratulations on getting to the stage in your blogging career that means you are able to do it full time and pay the bills. That’s my dream! Enjoy your moment, you’ve worked hard for it – and I have no doubts after reading this that you will continue to work hard. Good luck!

    Lacey (www.knickerbloggerglory.eu)

  33. 6 August, 2013 / 4:32 pm

    I read your blog because you obviously love what you’re doing and that you put a lot of effort into it. People who are quick to judge probably don’t know the effort that you put into filming videos, taking photos, writing, posting, etc. All of these on top of offline life responsibilities take up a lot time! So no matter what happens, I hope you continue blogging because I want to continue reading. 🙂

  34. Zoe
    6 August, 2013 / 6:57 pm

    I think that you can really only be admired for this decision and I don’t get how anyone can react differently. You have created something yourself, gradually built it up yourself and now you are successful enough in what you have done to have what may have originally been a hobby as a job- which is WONDERFUL. Try not to worry about the future- you should be celebrating your achievements right now! Also, pretty sure the ‘working girls’ will be super jealous of your career- Who doesn’t want to write about things they love everyday for a living! xxx Good luck!

  35. Cath
    6 August, 2013 / 10:37 pm

    Good on you!!! You have found something you enjoy doing and working hard to make something of it.

    I only just found your blog and channel a few months ago but now its addictive I come on here every day for an update. Good Luck

  36. 8 August, 2013 / 11:52 am

    Good luck! It’s always scary to jump into something new but you sound like you’ve got your head screwed on and are looking at it in the right way! I think people assume that just because they enjoy blogging, it would be great as a full time job, but everyone needs to be out of the house once in a while! Fingers crossed for you that it all goes well! 🙂
    Love your blog.
    Alice xo

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