For those of you that saw my twitter tirade yesterday, I apologise. For someone pretty small-fry in the blogging/vlogging world it really gets my goat how many people truly hate me. Of course I’m assuming this is several people and not just one with a serious vendetta. I can ignore most things but when my parenting is called in to question it proves more difficult. I could accept people thinking I’m talentless and unattractive.. that’s fine these are fair opinions but it seems these hate mongers stalk my every move just to criticise. I have been here before but for almost a year it seemed to completely vanish. The haters had moved on.. fantastic. I told myself if the same ever happened again would rise above it and not “give them what they want” (an argument). Of course in reality it’s very difficult to mask your emotions and my feelings were hurt. I have had this my whole life, I was not the popular kid at school, I was bullied throughout. I had friends and wasn’t a loner type but certain girls always went after me, I never understood it. You get the comments “they’re just jealous” but they really don’t help, it doesn’t make it go away. When you leave school you realise you don’t have to put up with that crap in the real world and I suppose when these girls found me in later life I want to defend myself like I never did back then.
But I shan’t. I shall draw a line here and hope never to speak of it again. I have read on that site terrible things about others, far, far worse than have been written about me and unless I intend to pack it all in now I’m going to have to toughen up. Yes it’s horrible but what they say doesn’t really have anything to do with me, it says a lot more about them and they have to live with who they are.
When people contact me and ask “do you think I should start a YouTube channel” I would like to be able to encourage them, it’s a great hobby and I’ve met some lovely people through it but you have to have a thick skin. I don’t know if my teenage self could have handled it. At nearly 26 it’s still not great.
Start a blog! The blogging community is on the whole 100% more supportive that the YouTube community. At the end of the day the video haters are no doubt illiterate morons that can’t read blogs.. that’s why you see so few trolls around here!