I want to say, ‘I’m so ready for some warmer weather’ but in reality.. I’m struggling to find the excitement for much at the moment. Whether it’s the depression or the meds, it’s hard to know but everything feels decidedly dulled.

By now I have usually been optimistically planting and making greenhouses out of milk bottles in the frost. I’ve been patting myself on the back for taking it easy this year and accepting the seasons as they come.. but in reality, I don’t think it’s anything to celebrate.

As I talked about at the start of the year, I want to focus on relfection rather than goals (ie: success/failure) and so I’m not giving myself a hard time about it but I’m definitely aware. I’ve created lots of new distractions to keep me busy so I’m not in my head too much and I really am hopeful that Spring will bring brighter days all round.

If you’re feeling some kind of way and can’t shake it off, my insta DMs are always open but I hope it helps to know, you’r not alone in it. Sometimes it’s easier to vent to strangers than it is to people close to you (because they will want to fix you) and for it’s many faults, the internet connects people who need each other if they’re looking for an online tribe.

HAPPY SPRING!