Not Ready For New Year

Is it safe to come out yet? How does 2023 look so far?

I had somewhat of a tumultuous Christmas with a not entirely mentally well December lead up. Usually I’m the first in line for refelections and resolutions for the new year but this year I need a little more time.

In the past I have pushed things aside and taken every chance (a new year, a full moon, a..Monday) to begin again and start over but breaking point is a great indicator that change is needed. I like change because it distracts my mind from bigger things I'd rather ignore but REAL change needs space and thought. I guess this is reflection but in a less hurried form.

I read something about taking stock of your year and pinpointing the things that made you the happiest, the most fulfilled or moved you in a positive way. It’s easy to focus on the superficial ‘happy’ when you’re a social media-er and the APPEARANCE of success through other people’s eyes. I’m taking January to really contemplate what most impacts my highs and lows before I decide on my goals for the year ahead.

I do still enjoy the process (I know some people don’t, each to their own!) of resolutions and focus points but this year I want them to mean something more. I need them to.